In case you were wondering.
If you want to know how I feel, start by cutting a hole in your stomach and lose ten pounds by forgetting to eat because of the chaos. Then, continue by continuously stabbing yourself in the chest. Next, insert a long stick up your nose and scramble everything around a little bit so that you can no longer figure out what anything really is behind all of the metaphors or how anything feels or what you really want. Let this stand for three weeks with little or no attention. Oh, and don't forget to think about how easily you are ignored while sitting alone in this state. Once you have hardened, allow someone to say all of the stupid things to you that they heard on television once. And silently take it. That's what it is to uselessly love someone. After a year and five months. Yes, kids, it hurts. But so does everything else, right.
Right.
Ah, to be old and self righteous enough to take care of myself.
Right.
Ah, to be old and self righteous enough to take care of myself.