Topic Fifteen: If you could change one moment in your past, what would it be?
If you could change one moment in your past, what would it be?
The Metatron will tell you that I'm trying to avoid blame for what I did, or that I'm trying to have my cake and eat it, too. What the Voice doesn't understand is humanity.
I made a mistake. I've spent 2000 years trying to undo it. I've finally accepted that what I want is impossible.
Is it so bad for me to do anything I can, anything I can, in my last-ditch effort to get Him to notice me? And I don't mean the notice the way the Voice would have you believe He notices everyone. I don't want holy water to steam when I touch it. I don't want rosaries to remind me of his lips. I want to enter a church and pray and remember Him how He used to be, when he was pure and perfect and mine.
Lucifer may not be able to give me that, but at least he doesn't lie. I've tried so many ways that to hear that it's impossible is a refuah. And if there is one thing I do believe, it's that He sends us the healing before the sickness. And Lucifer's been around for much longer than I have. I suppose that could be reason enough.
But when it comes down to it all...I miss Him. And I will do anything to get Him back.
Character: Judas/Dracula
Word Count: 225
The Metatron will tell you that I'm trying to avoid blame for what I did, or that I'm trying to have my cake and eat it, too. What the Voice doesn't understand is humanity.
I made a mistake. I've spent 2000 years trying to undo it. I've finally accepted that what I want is impossible.
Is it so bad for me to do anything I can, anything I can, in my last-ditch effort to get Him to notice me? And I don't mean the notice the way the Voice would have you believe He notices everyone. I don't want holy water to steam when I touch it. I don't want rosaries to remind me of his lips. I want to enter a church and pray and remember Him how He used to be, when he was pure and perfect and mine.
Lucifer may not be able to give me that, but at least he doesn't lie. I've tried so many ways that to hear that it's impossible is a refuah. And if there is one thing I do believe, it's that He sends us the healing before the sickness. And Lucifer's been around for much longer than I have. I suppose that could be reason enough.
But when it comes down to it all...I miss Him. And I will do anything to get Him back.
Character: Judas/Dracula
Word Count: 225