i'm trying to let you know how much i feel
I lost something a long time ago and I just don't know what it is.
I used to be so nice to everybody and I tried really hard to be likable. I just wanted to be nice. But I guess somewhere along the line I thought being too nice was just going to let everyone trample all over me. So I get bitter. Now I'm just so fucking bitter about everything. I pretend to hate things I really like. I get jealous at all my friends relationships. I get jealous of everything. I put down everything I can never have.
I'm really sorry to everybody that I was ever shitty to. I'm sorry I'm this way. I wish I could change back, but I just don't know how.
I used to be so nice to everybody and I tried really hard to be likable. I just wanted to be nice. But I guess somewhere along the line I thought being too nice was just going to let everyone trample all over me. So I get bitter. Now I'm just so fucking bitter about everything. I pretend to hate things I really like. I get jealous at all my friends relationships. I get jealous of everything. I put down everything I can never have.
I'm really sorry to everybody that I was ever shitty to. I'm sorry I'm this way. I wish I could change back, but I just don't know how.