I need to get a grip
Well, dad came to me, drunk, but all in a since, truthful. First he talked to me about Caren, and that I should not waste so much energy on her but on myself on life. I should do something with the skills that I got. I need to go to school and get a real job. But lately I've been slacking in that. I know I can not give Caren up. I know that I may be young and she might be young too. I know this might not be true love. But, it is something I never really had before and I tend to keep it. But, that isn't going to stop me. After he talked to me. And told me how proud of he was of me. I thought badly of myself. I am wasting my skills. When I should be getting transcripts I am playing games. I have to get into a school, get a car and get a real job for school. Now I need more time. So I can get that as quick as I can. I am proud of my dad. I told him I talk about him all the time. And that is true. I do. I look up to him for everything. Love, life, everything. What ever he tells me that day I spend sharing that with my friends. I learn wisdom from him. Wrong and rights. Everything. I promised him that I will use what I got. So I will. But, at the same time. I will Take Caren with me. I know she has potential too. And I might as well show her the way as I get mine completed. So instead of playing games. I will be working my ass of to get my life on the right line. And I will take Caren with, to help and be helped by for my life. I will be busting my ass off. But it will pay. With a good life and hopefully love. I will not fail my dad. I love him.