...
I just realized how much of an insensitive, judgemental and all around god awful person I really am. I can't believe I actually attacked a person verbally for what they liked. This person posts pictures of themselves with a character, (that I also like, oh dear) and for some reason I was completely disturbed by this and lashed out. Well..the flames came in and I started to realize how very wrong I was. Some of them were loud and obnoxious...but others had some value. And as I sit here feeling dreadful for myself...unable to do homework, unable to enjoy my fandom videos, unable to even SLEEP and with the worst migraine ever, tears streaming from my eyes with anger and revulsion at myself...I discover how terrible I truly can be. In truth...I hate hurting people's feelings and attacking them...but sometimes I can't control myself. I wish I could stop being so horrible...I really do, but it's going to take some time and I'm probably going to hit a lot more brick walls.