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I can't...do this anymore. I can't get up everyday and pretend things are fine.
I can't look in the mirror, knowing that I'll see the pain in my own eyes and I won't be able to suppress it anymore.
The physical scars are healing, they were only nicks to the skin. The mental ones....I'm not sure they will ever heal or fade like those on my skin. I just...
I feel like I should just...disappear- Just fade away. I couldn't even protect myself...and I abandoned the person who did come to help...I hope he's all right...
I keep hearing his voice in my head, too. I can't sleep and he makes my dreams into nightmares whenever I do manage some sleep. I can't get it out of my mind...
Stop...
STOP....
JUST FADE AWAY.
((OOC: For those who did not see the log with Muraki, Hitomi is very much broken right now. I am amazed the muse managed this much coherency. He was kidnapped, tied up, held at scalpel point, and molested- she's not going to be fixed anytime soon.))
I can't look in the mirror, knowing that I'll see the pain in my own eyes and I won't be able to suppress it anymore.
The physical scars are healing, they were only nicks to the skin. The mental ones....I'm not sure they will ever heal or fade like those on my skin. I just...
I feel like I should just...disappear- Just fade away. I couldn't even protect myself...and I abandoned the person who did come to help...I hope he's all right...
I keep hearing his voice in my head, too. I can't sleep and he makes my dreams into nightmares whenever I do manage some sleep. I can't get it out of my mind...
Stop...
STOP....
JUST FADE AWAY.
((OOC: For those who did not see the log with Muraki, Hitomi is very much broken right now. I am amazed the muse managed this much coherency. He was kidnapped, tied up, held at scalpel point, and molested- she's not going to be fixed anytime soon.))