starfirenz's meme part two
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11 Despair
My father’s death of cancer when I was 17. He knew he was going to die, I did not believe him - I went to Holland and I was persuaded to find him healthy when I come back, I’ve even told the entire busload of my classmates that my father would surely be there waiting for me when we come back. He was not. He was in hospital, the entire left half of his body paralysed. In two days, he died.
12 Frustration
Getting beaten up in sparring by people who are technically way below my level, but hit hard - I get afraid, but I am unable to hit them hard in return. Grrr.
13 Irritation
My ass-kissing colleague, who has ass-kissed her way to become the favourite of our Institute, and now is beginning to command everyone around as if she was actually important.
14 Disappointment
My used-to-be very good friend, whom I helped on several occasions endangering myself in the process. She did not back me up in a big conflict against a guy who was acting almost criminally.
15 Fear
Of being left alone.
16 Exhaustion
Last year’s training camp. Almost no sleep, four trainings a day, the first beginning before seven in the morning and the last one finishing after ten in the evening. I got high fever out of exhaustion in the end.
17 Bitterness
avoid
18 Pain
The week R and I split, because I could not understand a thing. In the end I learned he thought he was going to die (the cancer they diagnosed him with was denied by the second set of tests), and he almost killed my by trying to spare me the pain.
19 Greed
... is something I would severely punish people for.
20 Rage
I feel rage very often, but I’m trying to fight it.
Explanations to the mem in the reply to glitteringlynx in my previous post.
11 Despair
My father’s death of cancer when I was 17. He knew he was going to die, I did not believe him - I went to Holland and I was persuaded to find him healthy when I come back, I’ve even told the entire busload of my classmates that my father would surely be there waiting for me when we come back. He was not. He was in hospital, the entire left half of his body paralysed. In two days, he died.
12 Frustration
Getting beaten up in sparring by people who are technically way below my level, but hit hard - I get afraid, but I am unable to hit them hard in return. Grrr.
13 Irritation
My ass-kissing colleague, who has ass-kissed her way to become the favourite of our Institute, and now is beginning to command everyone around as if she was actually important.
14 Disappointment
My used-to-be very good friend, whom I helped on several occasions endangering myself in the process. She did not back me up in a big conflict against a guy who was acting almost criminally.
15 Fear
Of being left alone.
16 Exhaustion
Last year’s training camp. Almost no sleep, four trainings a day, the first beginning before seven in the morning and the last one finishing after ten in the evening. I got high fever out of exhaustion in the end.
17 Bitterness
avoid
18 Pain
The week R and I split, because I could not understand a thing. In the end I learned he thought he was going to die (the cancer they diagnosed him with was denied by the second set of tests), and he almost killed my by trying to spare me the pain.
19 Greed
... is something I would severely punish people for.
20 Rage
I feel rage very often, but I’m trying to fight it.
Explanations to the mem in the reply to glitteringlynx in my previous post.