Responsibility is heavy...it needs a diet.
I spoke with my counciler and parents today about going to UAB. My 24 ACT is a good thing, but my 2.2 isn't so good. Mrs. Gillis suggesting that I get my Associate's degree at Calhoun for the next two years and work on my grades. Mom and Dad looked at me smuggly.
I felt depressed by this information though. Sure, community college is a great thing for transitions, but it feels like defeat instead of the next level of education. I'm still going to be living at home, I'm still going to be in Huntsville, and I won't really be independent...
I feel like all my arguing, all my self-pep talks, and all of the encouragement that I got from others is pointless now; which is completely ridiculous... *sighs* Its not going to be that bad though. I qualify for the Pell Grant and several scholarships. Plus most of the people I talk to have said that Jr. Colleges are easy. Mom didn't really help matters though when she told me "reasuringling" "Don't worry, I went to a Jr. College first before I started at Senior College." Might I also mention that mom quit after she failed her last semester? *sighs* Its not a very encouraging thing to here from a woman who spends all her time in the house doing barely anything useful and a whole lot of bitching and moaning about how terrible her lot in life is.
It will get better though. I've got a job that pays better than the ones before it, I've got a good chance at a future if I can work up some patience and determination. I've got a home and food to eat and people who care. I can even stay un-depressed long enough to count my blessings.
Still. I wish I could leave home now. That would feel pretty good.
I felt depressed by this information though. Sure, community college is a great thing for transitions, but it feels like defeat instead of the next level of education. I'm still going to be living at home, I'm still going to be in Huntsville, and I won't really be independent...
I feel like all my arguing, all my self-pep talks, and all of the encouragement that I got from others is pointless now; which is completely ridiculous... *sighs* Its not going to be that bad though. I qualify for the Pell Grant and several scholarships. Plus most of the people I talk to have said that Jr. Colleges are easy. Mom didn't really help matters though when she told me "reasuringling" "Don't worry, I went to a Jr. College first before I started at Senior College." Might I also mention that mom quit after she failed her last semester? *sighs* Its not a very encouraging thing to here from a woman who spends all her time in the house doing barely anything useful and a whole lot of bitching and moaning about how terrible her lot in life is.
It will get better though. I've got a job that pays better than the ones before it, I've got a good chance at a future if I can work up some patience and determination. I've got a home and food to eat and people who care. I can even stay un-depressed long enough to count my blessings.
Still. I wish I could leave home now. That would feel pretty good.