eating me..
Wish I knew what to write sometimes, but it will either be emo ranting from my messed up head or nothing at all. Either I sayy how I feel and get more emo and maybe lose friends, or I say nothing and let it bottle up and lose myself. I know there is something wrong in my head, not something I ca control all the time, it... just snaps when I get too much negetive emotion and I spiral downward to a point where it more then likely hurts someone I hold dear.
Yeah, I am trying to vent some and let my feelings out in a controled manner, but I just doubt I can hold together another 4 months to get my meds. Depression sucks! You think you can control it but that is lie and I know this by hard and unfortant fact. I am far from perfect, but holding this back only lasts so long.
If I were my true self and without depression... I could pass college, have more friend, IRL and other places, write/art again. I just wish it would be gone...
Thanks for reading.
Yeah, I am trying to vent some and let my feelings out in a controled manner, but I just doubt I can hold together another 4 months to get my meds. Depression sucks! You think you can control it but that is lie and I know this by hard and unfortant fact. I am far from perfect, but holding this back only lasts so long.
If I were my true self and without depression... I could pass college, have more friend, IRL and other places, write/art again. I just wish it would be gone...
Thanks for reading.