writers block (more like bullshit)

[drabardi]

Whoever created this stupid scholarship didn't realize what they were asking people to write. I have been staring at the same blank page for two hours now , realizing how horrible and selfish i am . MS hasn't effected my life, i completely ignore that my mother has a debilitating disease and carry on with my own life. I don't want it to effect me .. i don't know how to handle it, i don't really want to learn. I want her to stay the strong one , remember what i said to her 15 mins ago, be herself, be awake.
How much of a better person can i make myself sound on paper to get 500 or 1000 dollars?..im beginning to think it's not even worth it.

sorry mom.