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Aight, so everything aint goin as planned, but you know, whatever, its all good in da hood. Gotsta go wit da flo. Had a fun day today! Heard that song "All I Want for Christmas is You." I instantly regretted ever listening to it, and frankly, life was better before this song. Part of this belief of mine is due to the fact that honestly, I just don't like christmas music. Or christmas pop music anyway. Hymns are aight, in fact, some of them are pretty bitchin'. I'd rather just listen to any-time-of-year-music, but whatever. I'll grin and bear it for the next few weeks. No problem. Studied very dilligently for AP Euro test for tomorrow. Hopefully I will do well on that (my grade really needs it). At this moment, I am contemplating what to write to a soldier in Iraq. The little note thingy says that it'll be screened for security (which really means screened for political bias or something of that nature). I can't decide if I should write about my thoughts about joining the military, and believe me, I have em quite often. I don't know. I feel like the military would be good for me. First off I think it'd be the experience of a lifetime, and I'd definitely meet some interesting people. Also, I think it'd be interesting to see what its like to face death and keep myself under control. I kinda went through that in Israel with the suicide bomb, but I don't know. Then again, I know I can't kill anybody (p.s. to all you people who try and act all "hard and shit," you couldn't kill anybody either. And if you could, then you really aren't a person). I tend to be a kind of silent rage person which then eventually bursts out in uncontrollable fits of anger and vengance. From what I've heard its absolutely terrifying. I could probably seriously injure someone when I go into my rare fits of rage. Robert can vouch for that, chris, Adam too (your birthday party w/ kenneth), and my brother, when I threw a drumstick through his face. Yeah. The thing is though, after each of those events, I experienced the deepest form of sorrow I've ever known. So who knows. Anyway, I'm done for the moment.