May 13, 2005 13:13
i wanna be that guy. the one who makes a creative move, a book, a movie whatever, risks everything and either comes out ahead or doesn't but at least he took that risk. when am i going to be that "guy." when am i going to have the time, courage, money and willpower, and i suppose the balls, since, well, is there a woman version of lucas, spielberg, stienbeck, stan lee, fitzgerald or terantino? (no, harry potter lady doesn't count. she ripped off too many other movies/books for me to truly respect her.)
now that i am 23, my mother finally said... well, you're getting old now. i don't feel old. i feel like 18++++++ at the moment. i've got to get started on being that "guy." and soon. and i don't have time for kids. unless i can find someone to stay home with them. i don't have time to be lazy. i don't really have time to earn another degree. perhaps i should have more seriously considered downing 50 grand into USC, like lucas.
but after that funeral of a 26 year old, i think, well, maybe being that "guy" can wait til i'm done being, well, being where i am i guess.