State of sadness
I'm not usually a whiner, but my state of sadness has come to a peak and i have to chanel my feelings and thougts in one way or another, so this is the first thing that came to mind. When you first break up with your girl, you feel sad abit, but then you enjoy your freedom, and the last thing on ur mind is a relationship. Well ive past that stage, I went through all the wild partying nights, the randomn action satisfaction, the freedom of having noone who's feelings you ahve to worry about or take into consideration. But loneliness has recently dawned upon me. I miss the feeling of having a girl care for you like no else. That feeling that you are special and different to this girl then anyone else you know. As I look around and see everyone else with their partners, it has almost become a necessity for me to get one. Every song I hear makes me think of what I'm missing. This is not the only factor contributing to this large sorrowful whole that I call my life. I never have any free time anymore. University is taking its tole on my mental and physical health, I've never had so much consecutive work in my life, Im staying in on a god forsaken SATURDAY, while all my friends are out having fun. I haven't had time to workout wich hits my self confidence. Basically everything is disastorous, I need to set things in motion to better the situation or there will be serious problems, thank you for your time folks.