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Keep in mind that I just have no idea how to do any of this. All this class stuff, all this actual "reporting" and shit just doesn't sit well with me. And I think it is more than me psyching myself out of it. There is just an innate fear or reticence to talk to strangers, or really anyone for that matter. I kind of get how doing all this makes me a better journalist, but all I really want to do is just copy edit for a good portion of my life. I enjoy that stuff. I have been so wicked stressed over all of this and I just don't really know how to deal with it all.
The jobs have not been going well either. There is not a whole lot going on, and this system that we use crashes continually and delays my work by hours. Each and every day. How flawed.
Erynn will not stop bothering me. I feel like Tori must have felt for that week and a half wherein I was a relative douche. How fun for everyone.
Watching the third season of The OC now. How totally sweet. This season is the one in which we all get introduced to the wonderful joy that is Taylor Townsend. Sweet.
The more I think about it, the less daunting Advanced Reporting is seeming. Only a little.
So Nicole at work has been more than a little frustrating. She left me the middle school-esque "will you go out with me" note on my computer a week ago or so. Since then she has been at my little office space frequently, even going so far as to combine pictures of us together inside a pink heart and taping it to my computer at work.
I guess objectively it is funny, although I know she is being completely facetious. That is something that I don't really appreciate. Not only is she significantly more attractive than me - which is not an odd thing when it comes to women who will make out with me - but is the whole way she is going about. At the same time, she doing a similar thing to another young man in the office - who is currently dating someone. That just sort of puts it all in perspective. It's to the point where the only reason she is talking/flirting with me is because it's some sort of joke. I get why it's funny; were it to anyone else, I would probably join in on the laughter. But I just don't understand why it has to be me. There has to be a better waste of her time. Jenny pointed out that she might legitimately be interested, but that is simply because she has no idea how Nicole has been acting. It's like the only reason it is funny is because the subject is me. I get you; you are out of my league and all that jazz. I just feel like this joke is going beyond the requirements of funny; she doesn't really feel that way, and it's all just a big joke on me. At least I'm in on it in the beginning. So there's that.
I'm sure there's more, but I can't write anymore.
The jobs have not been going well either. There is not a whole lot going on, and this system that we use crashes continually and delays my work by hours. Each and every day. How flawed.
Erynn will not stop bothering me. I feel like Tori must have felt for that week and a half wherein I was a relative douche. How fun for everyone.
Watching the third season of The OC now. How totally sweet. This season is the one in which we all get introduced to the wonderful joy that is Taylor Townsend. Sweet.
The more I think about it, the less daunting Advanced Reporting is seeming. Only a little.
So Nicole at work has been more than a little frustrating. She left me the middle school-esque "will you go out with me" note on my computer a week ago or so. Since then she has been at my little office space frequently, even going so far as to combine pictures of us together inside a pink heart and taping it to my computer at work.
I guess objectively it is funny, although I know she is being completely facetious. That is something that I don't really appreciate. Not only is she significantly more attractive than me - which is not an odd thing when it comes to women who will make out with me - but is the whole way she is going about. At the same time, she doing a similar thing to another young man in the office - who is currently dating someone. That just sort of puts it all in perspective. It's to the point where the only reason she is talking/flirting with me is because it's some sort of joke. I get why it's funny; were it to anyone else, I would probably join in on the laughter. But I just don't understand why it has to be me. There has to be a better waste of her time. Jenny pointed out that she might legitimately be interested, but that is simply because she has no idea how Nicole has been acting. It's like the only reason it is funny is because the subject is me. I get you; you are out of my league and all that jazz. I just feel like this joke is going beyond the requirements of funny; she doesn't really feel that way, and it's all just a big joke on me. At least I'm in on it in the beginning. So there's that.
I'm sure there's more, but I can't write anymore.