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Since the phone just doesn't seem to be the way you want to do this, I guess I will voice some things here:
I have never, never, wanted another person the way I want you. I see you and I smile; I'm happy. I wish it was reciprocal. I just wish that this hadn't come on so suddenly.
It speaks volumes that you won't return the many calls I have placed.
The idiot that I am, I thought that the Celine Dion night was a turning point, but in a good way. I guess I am just too obtuse in these things.
I want more than just friends. I'm in love with you. I have been for the past sixteen months or so.
I don't want to feel used or deceived, because I know you are better than that. I just thought there was the possibility of you approaching a level of what I feel. It is heartbreaking to find out that isn't the case.
Deep down I want you to be happy and complete. I really just wish that i could be a part of it. I can help you. I don't know, but I would give my all to make sure that were the case.
On a selfish note, it really hurts to learn that no matter what I do, I am just not good enough for what you need. I don't pride myself on a lot of things, but I could have sworn I would have made a decent boyfriend. I would have been whatever you needed. I would do whatever it takes.
I would delete this all in a second, but I'm not sure that I will ever get a call.
The lesson, as always, is that I am just a moron
I have never, never, wanted another person the way I want you. I see you and I smile; I'm happy. I wish it was reciprocal. I just wish that this hadn't come on so suddenly.
It speaks volumes that you won't return the many calls I have placed.
The idiot that I am, I thought that the Celine Dion night was a turning point, but in a good way. I guess I am just too obtuse in these things.
I want more than just friends. I'm in love with you. I have been for the past sixteen months or so.
I don't want to feel used or deceived, because I know you are better than that. I just thought there was the possibility of you approaching a level of what I feel. It is heartbreaking to find out that isn't the case.
Deep down I want you to be happy and complete. I really just wish that i could be a part of it. I can help you. I don't know, but I would give my all to make sure that were the case.
On a selfish note, it really hurts to learn that no matter what I do, I am just not good enough for what you need. I don't pride myself on a lot of things, but I could have sworn I would have made a decent boyfriend. I would have been whatever you needed. I would do whatever it takes.
I would delete this all in a second, but I'm not sure that I will ever get a call.
The lesson, as always, is that I am just a moron