i fucked so majorly up and there is nothing i can do....
i fucked up once again, why is it when i think someone isnt gonna get hurt, it hurts them more than anything in the land of ever, fucking a that didnt even make sense i feel so much like shit, i cant even get my thoughts out, if i was her friend why did i do that, i was her friend werent this close in a long time and of course fucking a thats what it was, i thought i was being funny and cool and didnt think of my friends, impressing the guys mother fucker no more of that, shit ass fuck, i hate it i fucking hate myself, i hate myself and i need to die i bet they think i need to die, well i should, i fucking should, dam it to hell, fucking a fuck thanksgiving fuck holidays, how can you go through a holiday and hurt two people that are good friends of yours, shit shit shit shit, dam it to hell, what can i do NOTHING fucking a, i hate it and i hate myself, i hate the school, there is nothing i can do, she can hate me, and everyone else can too, but im not gonna hate them im still gonna love them like i did before, fuck