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update time. heritage is my new best friend. Corpse bride will be what i do on friday, so everyone that wants to see it with me hit up my cell. i went and saw people at the school this week, i got tackled and mauled a few times by brittany and camy among many. Im shit tired and i don't want to put up with bull shit, and my hands hurt, so i'm going to finish this 3 page paper then my letter and get some sleep.
Maybe i should just listen to brittany. it would be so easy just to listen to her. I'll listen to ruth and jesy they've never let me down. but I need to stop being so thick and Naive. I need to stop hoping. Hope is an eternity of Dissapointment. and i need to start being me again, I've lost myelf. I need to meditate eventually, that would solve alot of my problems. I need to clean my room again, sit on the floor and meditate, maybe the gods will ahve an answr for me, maybe i'll have an answer for me. maybe my flaws will have an answer for me. maybe my blood will have an answer. I don't know. Mayeb i need to stop listenin to music and go for a walk.I need to be me again, I'm lost again, lacking the essence, wantiong to turn to a false solution before the final solution. but no, i won;t resort to the final solution, th efalse solution may be nesacary but I hope not.
"Never have the words 'I'm sorry' seemed so unconvincing and insincere"
Trust is Naught but a shadow at dusk's dawn. Why don't i believe? I want to, i do. But i can't.
I feel like a piece of shit in a water treatment plant.
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Maybe i should just listen to brittany. it would be so easy just to listen to her. I'll listen to ruth and jesy they've never let me down. but I need to stop being so thick and Naive. I need to stop hoping. Hope is an eternity of Dissapointment. and i need to start being me again, I've lost myelf. I need to meditate eventually, that would solve alot of my problems. I need to clean my room again, sit on the floor and meditate, maybe the gods will ahve an answr for me, maybe i'll have an answer for me. maybe my flaws will have an answer for me. maybe my blood will have an answer. I don't know. Mayeb i need to stop listenin to music and go for a walk.I need to be me again, I'm lost again, lacking the essence, wantiong to turn to a false solution before the final solution. but no, i won;t resort to the final solution, th efalse solution may be nesacary but I hope not.
"Never have the words 'I'm sorry' seemed so unconvincing and insincere"
Trust is Naught but a shadow at dusk's dawn. Why don't i believe? I want to, i do. But i can't.
I feel like a piece of shit in a water treatment plant.
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