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I need someone to talk to, one that i wont worry will think i'm trying to take away from their problems by telling them about mine. one that i can just break down in front of. one that i wont have to worry will judge me because of what i've done in the past and what i do now. i dotn know any one who fits all of those descriptions. i either dont trust them enough to tell them what i want to tell them or i feel like i would be seeming to selfish to try to rant to themi may end up using this for all of my problems, all my worries. i cant even say what i want in here because someof the things that i need to talk about deal with other people that i'm not sure would be happy with ym talking about their problems and how they've affected me. i dont know how much longer i can just keep things bottle up inside though. i dont want to break down though. i dont want my problems to become public. i dont want to have to pick up the phone and call some one because im so scared of what i could do to myself. i just want someone to talk to, someone whom i can rely on. i dont have any...and it saddens me. i have these few close friends but i wont talk to them becauseI'm so worried that I'll add on to their problems, or mine will seem so insignificant compared to theirs. OR maybe I'll just com eoff as a selfish little fuck. but i dont want to make things worse for anyone. but...i want someone to talk to. and i would talk to stephen, jenn, beth, ariel, jessika, jamie or even jesy. but none of them fit all of those requirements which woul allow me to be completely open with them. it kills me. *shrugs* *holds his knees to his chest and hides in acorner*
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