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dr_ichijouji

[Locked from Hagurumon]

Mar 29, 2009 01:21

So. Despite my best efforts to sleep forever, I live. I'm mourning this turn of events more than anyone else, I'm sure. Unfortunately, due to muscular atrophy, I'm still bedridden.

Lorne, may I request another crate of your finest spirits?

Anyone else: I have a nice, limited edition Colt M1911. Blued steel, brass accents, .45 caliber. Rather than ( Read more... )

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kindinshadows March 29 2009, 15:40:09 UTC

Oniisan...

dr_ichijouji March 29 2009, 18:40:10 UTC

Hrm?

kindinshadows March 29 2009, 18:46:20 UTC

I'm worried about you. I don't want you to sleep forever. I've had enough death in the family to want to see it happen again.

dr_ichijouji March 29 2009, 18:53:41 UTC

Ken, I know you're young, but sometimes death is a mercy when life is no longer worth the struggle. Quantity of life should never supersede quality of life.

But, Hagurumon says I must play the game to get out of here, so I'll play along only as much as I have to. Anything more shouldn't be expected of me. I've never had much enthusiasm for being a toy soldier.

kindinshadows March 29 2009, 20:59:20 UTC

I may be young, but I've been through my shares of sorrows. I've known times... well, a time... when it felt like all I want is to just stay hidden in my room and never get out of bed. But, I also know that even if it felt like I was stuck at the bottom of a well and couldn't see a way out, that that didn't make it objectively true. It was only realizing that fact, that I was giving up without even trying, because it hurt too much to do anything, that let me work past things and get my head clear enough to ask for help.

If you don't want to be a toy soldier, oniisan, then don't. You're a doctor, and that's plenty useful enough. Who knows, last time, it felt like our partners were doing all the physical fighting. We were just needed for the mental and emotional bits. The smartest thing to do is to play to everyone's strengths.

dr_ichijouji March 29 2009, 22:02:54 UTC

... You couldn't possibly understand. One time does not equal a lifetime of -

... You know what, nevermind.

I'm an epidemiologist, not a general practitioner. I've never been fond of surgery and now I'm simply wasting away from sheer boredom even trying.

kindinshadows March 29 2009, 23:41:03 UTC

There' also investigation stuff to be done. I think there's a forensic specialist working for DATS now. It's not what you did, but it's not surgery.

dr_ichijouji March 30 2009, 01:19:26 UTC

It's not the same.

And, frankly, nothing that was my support network in my world is available or attainable here.

I'll just go ahead and suffer alone. It's a new experience.

kindinshadows March 30 2009, 01:23:15 UTC

You don't have to, you know.

dr_ichijouji March 30 2009, 01:28:57 UTC

Ken? It's never been my way to inflict my personal issues on others. I'll handle it with as much dignity as I can manage.

kindinshadows March 30 2009, 01:34:36 UTC

You aren't inflicting. I'm butting in, like a noisy little brother. Or just playing forward a debt a friend owes me, I haven't decided yet.

dr_ichijouji March 30 2009, 01:43:54 UTC

There's nothing that can be done for me. Don't waste your energies trying, I'll only end up pulling you down with me.

kindinshadows March 30 2009, 01:45:39 UTC

That's not something you can ask of me -- I can't stop caring about you. You're my brother.

dr_ichijouji March 30 2009, 01:56:26 UTC

Heh. You never had to grow up with me. The other you stopped caring a long time ago.

I'm toxic, Ken. Really, you're better off enjoying your childhood while you can.

kindinshadows March 30 2009, 02:03:00 UTC

...

I'm not going to give up on you.

dr_ichijouji March 30 2009, 02:08:07 UTC

If you say so.

Apparently, sooner or later everyone leaves.

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