Tomorrow
Tomorrow's Monday. That sucks, I knew it would come back around eventually, but these weekends sometimes don't last long enough. I wish there was more time able to be spent with MLE, but there just isn't and I guess I'll deal with that. I NEED A JOB! I think I have one lined up (unofficially) for the summer, but it's salary pay and I'm really afraid that I'm going to end up working more than I'm gonna get paid for. I wish I and EVERYONE else could just live their lives while they last and be able to appreciate each minute that passes. We just worry about tomorrow so much that what we do today is for tomorrow and not for the now. It's inevitable I guess, but really sad when you look at it. I spent most of my early teen years wishing that they would pass and I could go on and be an adult, but my attitude has really changed since then. I live in Ocean City and I have the greatest girl that I've ever known in my life. The truth is now, I regret every single day I wished this time of my life away and every single day that I slowly faded from my "friends". Now that I'm truly happy with my "sunshine on a cloudy day" I try to take on each day one at a time, no matter if it's only a glimpse I catch of you. This is starting to sound so cliche and corny, but I'm just venting friends. When I look out the window to see the sun setting behind the bay, I see the water glistening, the birds flying and the clouds that look as if they had just been painted there. The scene is just so perfect sometimes, then I think of MLE and at that moment NOTHING can touch me. It's such a bliss. Maybe so far I've come this far kicking and screaming, but at the moment life is good. This Time Is For Real.