So...
I have absolutely nothing else to do right now so i decided to update this thing.
A lots been happening lately: going away parties, district conferences, picnics, skipping school, other crap i cant remember.
And a lot of things coming up: going away parties, rotex wochenende, THE KILLERS CONCERT!!!, picnics, a musical, meeting people's parents for the first time, saying good-bye to people at the airport.
It really sucks that it is all coming to an end and everyone is leaving and i feel like i have to do all these things before i leave (49 days left). But it sucks even more that all of these friends that i have made over this past year are all leaving or staying here and i either have to watch them all leave or be the one leaving them all here. I seriously do want to come back home but right now, i really dont know how it is going to be when i come home. I'll have less freedom, be back to the shitty job at Perkins, back to my parents, back to people that i know or people that i will become friends with. Also i keep on thinking about what is actually going to happen when i come back i.e. How it is going to be like back with my friends? Over this past year i have heard of the changes my friends have gone through and the different people that they have hung out with and the changes with people at school. All of it actually is kinda scary for me to think about. Cause i definately know that everything wont be the way that i left it , wont be the way that i would like it to be, and wont be the way that everyone would like it to be like. Every single exchange student knows about the "returning home culture shock" and we all actually kinda fear it or even deny it. But at the same time we all know that it has to happen and it will happen. Whether we like it or not.
(Jay (you'll find out later who he is) called me...updating later)
Back to the update
Hmm...where did i leave off....oh yea back to my soppy entry
So yea there is a guy named Jay...he's the one who actually turned out to be gay in my district. And ever since we've talken to each other (right after my Euro Tour) we have been really really close. We've either talked to each other or have seen each other everyday since then. And when he went to Brussels for 3 days with his friend it really struck me that i have really strong feelings for him and i seriously dont know how i am going to be when he flys home (in 19 days i might add). I seriously dont want to think about it right now but there is no possible way for me not to think about it. I really dont want these 19 days to end but i know this is all apart of the exchange year. We meet people, develop strong bonds with them, and then we all have to go our seperate ways in the end. Yea there is always the phone but it isnt the same. Cause i can just go a half hour with the train and i can see him. But back in the US i have to drive over 11 hours to get to where he lives. Right now we are trying to not have our feelings for each other be really strong but there is no possible way that i can help it.
Jay if you are reading this i really would like to talk about this with you when i come over.
A lots been happening lately: going away parties, district conferences, picnics, skipping school, other crap i cant remember.
And a lot of things coming up: going away parties, rotex wochenende, THE KILLERS CONCERT!!!, picnics, a musical, meeting people's parents for the first time, saying good-bye to people at the airport.
It really sucks that it is all coming to an end and everyone is leaving and i feel like i have to do all these things before i leave (49 days left). But it sucks even more that all of these friends that i have made over this past year are all leaving or staying here and i either have to watch them all leave or be the one leaving them all here. I seriously do want to come back home but right now, i really dont know how it is going to be when i come home. I'll have less freedom, be back to the shitty job at Perkins, back to my parents, back to people that i know or people that i will become friends with. Also i keep on thinking about what is actually going to happen when i come back i.e. How it is going to be like back with my friends? Over this past year i have heard of the changes my friends have gone through and the different people that they have hung out with and the changes with people at school. All of it actually is kinda scary for me to think about. Cause i definately know that everything wont be the way that i left it , wont be the way that i would like it to be, and wont be the way that everyone would like it to be like. Every single exchange student knows about the "returning home culture shock" and we all actually kinda fear it or even deny it. But at the same time we all know that it has to happen and it will happen. Whether we like it or not.
(Jay (you'll find out later who he is) called me...updating later)
Back to the update
Hmm...where did i leave off....oh yea back to my soppy entry
So yea there is a guy named Jay...he's the one who actually turned out to be gay in my district. And ever since we've talken to each other (right after my Euro Tour) we have been really really close. We've either talked to each other or have seen each other everyday since then. And when he went to Brussels for 3 days with his friend it really struck me that i have really strong feelings for him and i seriously dont know how i am going to be when he flys home (in 19 days i might add). I seriously dont want to think about it right now but there is no possible way for me not to think about it. I really dont want these 19 days to end but i know this is all apart of the exchange year. We meet people, develop strong bonds with them, and then we all have to go our seperate ways in the end. Yea there is always the phone but it isnt the same. Cause i can just go a half hour with the train and i can see him. But back in the US i have to drive over 11 hours to get to where he lives. Right now we are trying to not have our feelings for each other be really strong but there is no possible way that i can help it.
Jay if you are reading this i really would like to talk about this with you when i come over.