How I dearly wish i was not here
Hey blog lovers. I'm back in ajax for easter (i don't want your rules but i'll take your excuses for turkey), and its dismal. Actually angst and depression haven't set in. I'm mostly just BORED OUT OF MY FUCKING MIND. Tomorrow my sisters coming in, that'll be fun. Haven't seen her in awhile. In a month she'll be a doctor. A fucking month. We are getting so old these days!
Anyway, i forgot the wire dealy that leads from my camera to my puter so no ajax update for a few days. Actually I didn't do anything update worthy. I watched the doors movie which SUUUUUUUUUUUUCKED. You'd think it'd be right up my alley but you'd be wrong. I hated it. It bored me. I kept fast forwarding through all the music and just waiting for him to die. It did make me kinda horny though. Which is reason enough to hate a movie when i'm in ajax.
What we do is secret.
Update: its a bit later and i'm now drinking a glass of wine, having a smoke, and listening to Nico's "I'm not saying". Back in my cockier days i'd tell people this was my anthem. And like time coming back at me, i haven't heard it in so long, and now its every girl i've ever fallen in love with singing to me.
"i'm not saying that i love you, i'm not saying that i care if you love me.
I'm not saying that i care, i'm not saying i'll be there when you want me.
I can't give my heart to you, or tell you that i'd sing your name up to the sky.
I can't lay the promise that I'll be around when you need me.
Now i may not be alone each time you see me, along the street or in a small cafe.
But still i won't deny you or mistreat you, baby if you let me have my way.
I'm not saying i'll be sorry, for the things that i might say that make you cry.
I can't say i'll always do the things you want me to.
I'm not saying i'll be true, but i'd try"
Oh sometimes its so sweet.
Anyway, i forgot the wire dealy that leads from my camera to my puter so no ajax update for a few days. Actually I didn't do anything update worthy. I watched the doors movie which SUUUUUUUUUUUUCKED. You'd think it'd be right up my alley but you'd be wrong. I hated it. It bored me. I kept fast forwarding through all the music and just waiting for him to die. It did make me kinda horny though. Which is reason enough to hate a movie when i'm in ajax.
What we do is secret.
Update: its a bit later and i'm now drinking a glass of wine, having a smoke, and listening to Nico's "I'm not saying". Back in my cockier days i'd tell people this was my anthem. And like time coming back at me, i haven't heard it in so long, and now its every girl i've ever fallen in love with singing to me.
"i'm not saying that i love you, i'm not saying that i care if you love me.
I'm not saying that i care, i'm not saying i'll be there when you want me.
I can't give my heart to you, or tell you that i'd sing your name up to the sky.
I can't lay the promise that I'll be around when you need me.
Now i may not be alone each time you see me, along the street or in a small cafe.
But still i won't deny you or mistreat you, baby if you let me have my way.
I'm not saying i'll be sorry, for the things that i might say that make you cry.
I can't say i'll always do the things you want me to.
I'm not saying i'll be true, but i'd try"
Oh sometimes its so sweet.