Almost officially dead
To be honest with myself and all of you....all I want to do is run in front of a car and die. The only part alive on me is my body. Im done, im over, my life has been ruined. I cant go through with this pain...its too tragic to deal with,
He left me. He broke his biggest promise ever made to me. He meant the world to me. I can barely breathe.
I cant believe this. Im so miserable...i come home and i sleep sleep sleep so i dont have to think about him. Do you understand he was the person I put before anybody in my life? He played the biggest role to me...he made up my days and my nights. My happiness and my frusteration, my anger, my love, my soul. I feel like im nobody without him.
Was I used? How could this happen???
There is no moving on for me for a long time. I DONT WANT TO.
Someone please tell me this isnt real.
What am I gonna do???? How am I gonna get through everything without him? Hes been there too long for him to just leave me like this.
I cant do it. I cant do it. I cant do it. this is what I get?????????????????????????
I dont know what to do with myself............
He acts like he doesnt care about me at ALL. And then he says he still loves me more than anybody. How can he not want to be with me anymore? I did EVERYTHING he wanted me to. I did SO MUCH FOR HIM. I GAVE UP MY LIFE and EVERYBODY IN IT.
FUCK YOU ALL!!!!!!!! IM DONE!! IM DONE!