i want to say something..
i want to say something, and i want to say it loud.
i want to say it so loud its a sound that rings out forever.
i want to express a living joy.
i want to share this joy throughout the world.. a unity and perfection this world doesn't understand.
i want so many things for the world around me - and its mostly just their own dreams come true.
why do i say this today?
because yesterday was maybe the greatest day i've ever had.
it was kind of the culmination of all my best laid plans.
i've been thanked and flattered so much, for just being me.. invited to tag along to something improbably awesome. these things do not happen to me... not like this. not like this.
i want to share with everyone. i want to take you all with me. i want so badly to see everyone else as happy in their own skin as i am today.
i am not sure i know the meaning of forgiveness for people who have done me wrong. that is perhaps why i don't write here anymore. i don't want to be the girl who can't forgive anymore. i don't want to be the girl who can't let go of something just because she felt violated, betrayed, unloved, etc.
i know i always deserved better. i always did. but i don't know that i've ever reached so hard for what i deserve until recently.
this past year has been unbelievable.. unstoppable.. undeniable.
this past year i've been a virago on flaming wheels.
this past year i've made more of my own dreams come true than ever before...
so much so that i had to coin a new term.. "a case of the muahahaha's"
when i drove home yesterday.. with a festival of manic, joyful thoughts.. the sky was darkened by thick clouds.. but the sun burst through with so many rays that just cut through like blades of righteousness and fury..
i wept and screamed with laughter until i was sure i was frightening the other drivers around me. i've never laughed like that. ever.
they say we dream up the world we want to live in. i'm gonna dream out loud. and for this.. i'm gonna do this entry public. lol hello world..
i want to say it so loud its a sound that rings out forever.
i want to express a living joy.
i want to share this joy throughout the world.. a unity and perfection this world doesn't understand.
i want so many things for the world around me - and its mostly just their own dreams come true.
why do i say this today?
because yesterday was maybe the greatest day i've ever had.
it was kind of the culmination of all my best laid plans.
i've been thanked and flattered so much, for just being me.. invited to tag along to something improbably awesome. these things do not happen to me... not like this. not like this.
i want to share with everyone. i want to take you all with me. i want so badly to see everyone else as happy in their own skin as i am today.
i am not sure i know the meaning of forgiveness for people who have done me wrong. that is perhaps why i don't write here anymore. i don't want to be the girl who can't forgive anymore. i don't want to be the girl who can't let go of something just because she felt violated, betrayed, unloved, etc.
i know i always deserved better. i always did. but i don't know that i've ever reached so hard for what i deserve until recently.
this past year has been unbelievable.. unstoppable.. undeniable.
this past year i've been a virago on flaming wheels.
this past year i've made more of my own dreams come true than ever before...
so much so that i had to coin a new term.. "a case of the muahahaha's"
when i drove home yesterday.. with a festival of manic, joyful thoughts.. the sky was darkened by thick clouds.. but the sun burst through with so many rays that just cut through like blades of righteousness and fury..
i wept and screamed with laughter until i was sure i was frightening the other drivers around me. i've never laughed like that. ever.
they say we dream up the world we want to live in. i'm gonna dream out loud. and for this.. i'm gonna do this entry public. lol hello world..
Click to view