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Im beginning to realize reality...
Beginning to realize that EVERYTHING I want is also everything that is impossible for me to have.
They all lied to me when I was younger... nothing is possible.
Why couldnt they just sit us down in kindergarten and say "Listen up kids, the world you were born into is a cruel one where love doesnt excist. Dont expect to achieve any of your goals because youll only fail. Be ready for dissapointment kids... its the ONLY thing youll get in life"
Dreams mean NOTHING anymore.
1 month has passed...
Ive done nothing. Ive hung out with friends. Ive gone to parties. I got a job.
But I NEVER grieved.
I thought I didnt need to
Until now...
The past couple of days have been cruel and unforgiving.
I guess I finally realized that I pushed what I needed out of my life. It just became such a routine that I started to question what him and I had... I thought I wouldnt miss that. I do... Ive been crying non stop.
But no one on here would care anyways...
Everyone held their tongue till he was out of my life and then told me that they didnt like him that they are thankful that I am not marrying him. I nodded... I agreed... only because its easier that putting up a fight. Its easier than trying to explain love to every person you come across.
And none of you want me to be with him... and I understand that.
But heres the thing...
One day... Im just gonna up and leave
You wont know where Im going to
You wont know anything
But Ill be happy
Ill be with him
And youll just have to wait to hear from me
Because I know a relationship between him and I can not excist here
Its hard to do something that your heart is telling you is right when soo many people are so dissaproving of it.
<333
Sleep with all the lights on.
You're not so happy.
You're not secure.
You're dying to look cute in your blue jeans,
but you're plastic just like everyone.
You're just like everyone.
And that face you paint is pressed
impressing most of us as permanent
and I'd like to see you undone.
College night will draw the crowds.
Dorms unload & your heading out.
Here is your moment to shine.
Making up a history.
It's nothing from the life you lead
but man, will they buy all your lines.
Sleep with all the sheets off
bearing your mattress
bearing your soul.
And you're dying to look smooth with your tattoos
but you're searching just like everyone
could be anyone.
And the friends that you have are the best
impressing most of us as permanent
and I'd like to see you undone.
Youth's the most unfaithful mistress.
Still we forge ahead to miss her.
Rushing our moment to shine.
Making up a history,
It's nothing from the life you lead
but man will they buy all your lines.
We're not twenty-one,
but the sooner we are,
the sooner the fun will begin,
so get out your fake eyelashes,
and fake i.d's,
& real disasters ensue,
it's cool to take these chances.
It's cool to fake romances
& grow up fast.
Beginning to realize that EVERYTHING I want is also everything that is impossible for me to have.
They all lied to me when I was younger... nothing is possible.
Why couldnt they just sit us down in kindergarten and say "Listen up kids, the world you were born into is a cruel one where love doesnt excist. Dont expect to achieve any of your goals because youll only fail. Be ready for dissapointment kids... its the ONLY thing youll get in life"
Dreams mean NOTHING anymore.
1 month has passed...
Ive done nothing. Ive hung out with friends. Ive gone to parties. I got a job.
But I NEVER grieved.
I thought I didnt need to
Until now...
The past couple of days have been cruel and unforgiving.
I guess I finally realized that I pushed what I needed out of my life. It just became such a routine that I started to question what him and I had... I thought I wouldnt miss that. I do... Ive been crying non stop.
But no one on here would care anyways...
Everyone held their tongue till he was out of my life and then told me that they didnt like him that they are thankful that I am not marrying him. I nodded... I agreed... only because its easier that putting up a fight. Its easier than trying to explain love to every person you come across.
And none of you want me to be with him... and I understand that.
But heres the thing...
One day... Im just gonna up and leave
You wont know where Im going to
You wont know anything
But Ill be happy
Ill be with him
And youll just have to wait to hear from me
Because I know a relationship between him and I can not excist here
Its hard to do something that your heart is telling you is right when soo many people are so dissaproving of it.
<333
Sleep with all the lights on.
You're not so happy.
You're not secure.
You're dying to look cute in your blue jeans,
but you're plastic just like everyone.
You're just like everyone.
And that face you paint is pressed
impressing most of us as permanent
and I'd like to see you undone.
College night will draw the crowds.
Dorms unload & your heading out.
Here is your moment to shine.
Making up a history.
It's nothing from the life you lead
but man, will they buy all your lines.
Sleep with all the sheets off
bearing your mattress
bearing your soul.
And you're dying to look smooth with your tattoos
but you're searching just like everyone
could be anyone.
And the friends that you have are the best
impressing most of us as permanent
and I'd like to see you undone.
Youth's the most unfaithful mistress.
Still we forge ahead to miss her.
Rushing our moment to shine.
Making up a history,
It's nothing from the life you lead
but man will they buy all your lines.
We're not twenty-one,
but the sooner we are,
the sooner the fun will begin,
so get out your fake eyelashes,
and fake i.d's,
& real disasters ensue,
it's cool to take these chances.
It's cool to fake romances
& grow up fast.