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I havent updated in a while... I wonder why...
Maybe I have just been afraid to say what I have been thining/feeling....
Went shopping today...
AMBER!!! At DEB in the Holyoke mall I bought awesome pants... Their the ones we wear with the HUGE bell at the bottom... theyre stretch but SUPER comfy. If u get a chance u should check out a deb somewhere... and get his, they were only 15 dollars.
Bobs still in North Adams its been a week since Ive seen him and honestly I dont think he will ever make any effort to see me. I dont know what in the world he wants but for some reason I dont think its me. I feel like once again Im not worth anything to anyone.
Because of him... well perhaps I shouldnt blame him... because of his influence and my actions I missed out on 6 monthes of Marissas life. I should have been there for her and I wasnt. I feel so helpless now. Shell never trust me the way she once did and there is nothing I can do other than TRY. I know shes still doing things I stopped doing so naturally I worry. I worry one day her whole body will be covered in scars for the sole reason that I wasnt there to talk her out of it and stop her I just hope shell be ok... cause even though her and I arent too close right now I dont know how I would go on in life knowing she wasnt living. ergh... maybe I worry too much
what to do now...
nothing I suppose
Movie at 7 something... ... ... ... ... ... ...
My hairs dark brown... all of it... and Im surprised that I dont look putrid, I thought I would.
Well I did what I came to this site to do, update... so now Im off to do something... maybe ill give someone a ring...
Maybe I have just been afraid to say what I have been thining/feeling....
Went shopping today...
AMBER!!! At DEB in the Holyoke mall I bought awesome pants... Their the ones we wear with the HUGE bell at the bottom... theyre stretch but SUPER comfy. If u get a chance u should check out a deb somewhere... and get his, they were only 15 dollars.
Bobs still in North Adams its been a week since Ive seen him and honestly I dont think he will ever make any effort to see me. I dont know what in the world he wants but for some reason I dont think its me. I feel like once again Im not worth anything to anyone.
Because of him... well perhaps I shouldnt blame him... because of his influence and my actions I missed out on 6 monthes of Marissas life. I should have been there for her and I wasnt. I feel so helpless now. Shell never trust me the way she once did and there is nothing I can do other than TRY. I know shes still doing things I stopped doing so naturally I worry. I worry one day her whole body will be covered in scars for the sole reason that I wasnt there to talk her out of it and stop her I just hope shell be ok... cause even though her and I arent too close right now I dont know how I would go on in life knowing she wasnt living. ergh... maybe I worry too much
what to do now...
nothing I suppose
Movie at 7 something... ... ... ... ... ... ...
My hairs dark brown... all of it... and Im surprised that I dont look putrid, I thought I would.
Well I did what I came to this site to do, update... so now Im off to do something... maybe ill give someone a ring...