(no subject)
Oh man, every time Dan comes over here it's major trouble. He came over around 5 and left 15 minutes ago. While it was wonderful while he was here, I still have this ConWest paper and the memorization of my Henry V speech for V&D looming over my head. I said to him "Well, you should come over in the late afternoon because I usually get more work done starting around 7 and you'll be gone by then." Ha. Yeah right.
But it was good that he came over. We did some serious talking, mostly exploring (once again) how closed off I am when it comes to my heart. God, I don't know what it is. If I could just write down everything I feel that would be perfect. Actually talking to this guy that I am so smitten with and telling him that I am so smitten with him is sooooooooooooooo infinitely difficult for me. It's not like I had some horrible childhood experience or that I once told a guy I liked him and he laughed in my face. I have no real reason to be so closed off which is what makes it so frustrating. So I'll work on it.
But it was good that he came over. We did some serious talking, mostly exploring (once again) how closed off I am when it comes to my heart. God, I don't know what it is. If I could just write down everything I feel that would be perfect. Actually talking to this guy that I am so smitten with and telling him that I am so smitten with him is sooooooooooooooo infinitely difficult for me. It's not like I had some horrible childhood experience or that I once told a guy I liked him and he laughed in my face. I have no real reason to be so closed off which is what makes it so frustrating. So I'll work on it.