Behind those apparels
Behind those apparels
When we go out and face the world, we should be ready to hear the words that they think are right to determine us. Apparently, in less than 10 seconds we would be able to know what we are to them. Unfair but that’s how it is done for in this world nothing is really unfair. People always judge others on how they see them, how they act, they speak, and how they dress so others try their best to look presentable.
When we say people, it definitely applies to everyone, including you, them, and of course, me. I was nine years old when my parents allowed me to go outside our house. Since the day I learn how to play, mingle, read, and talk, I was just forced to stay inside our house. My family grew up in a fundamental church so it was hard for me to do what I want as a child. Playing with my cousins and watching cartoons with my siblings were my hobbies before I reached nine. Inside our house I was trained to act like a Christian, a presentable Christian who strives to be like Christ. What else do you expect from a conservative family? Religious, good people and long apparels, but since I was just a kid I can wear everything I want to wear. Normally when you’re a kid you wear shorts and sandos. As I grew up, my body, too, changed and my attitudes. So when I was nine I was allowed to go out and play outside.
Facing the world wasn’t easy. I got used to our house where my friends were my cousins. I learned how to mingle and play with kids who had different attitudes. Since that time, I didn’t wear other clothes except for a long short that goes beyond my knees and a t-shirt. I never wore a short with knee-length size or a short that goes one inch above the knees. Why? I grew up in a conservative family. Still, people outside accepted me. Who cares? I’m me, without me they can’t play street games, since most of the Filipino street games require two equal groups.
Our clothes always tell us what we are-our style, social class, gender, and attitudes. For our clothes represent what we are-outside. It wasn’t easy to hear what others think of you especially when they were negative. I was always being told that I was a lesbian; no guy would like me because of the way I dress. When I become a teenager, the clothes change and even the styles, from elephant pants to skinny jeans and from knee length or inch above the knee short to short shorts. I, as a person who notice the change, still remain on what I think is right for me. I still wear those shorts that are meant for guys and long t-shirts.
Wearing those clothes for me makes me feel comfortable. I can move freely without thinking my body parts being seen. For 7 years I’ve been wearing those kinds of clothes, I always go to the men’s section whenever we buy clothes. I just wanted to look simple but in others’ views I am a lesbo. That doesn’t prove that I am lesbian because when I go out with my friends I wear skinny jeans and t-shirts with curves while my classmates wear those clothes with low necklines, etc. anything that can make them look like teenagers or sexy or beutiful.
I’m already seventeen years old and already in my second year in college. People say I look like a highschooler because of my face, my height and because of how I dress. They say I should dress like a teenager but I have my own conviction. Why do people dress that way? I always ask. I look in our whole body mirror and stare at my own reflection. Wow. I’m simple. Pants and a presentable t-shirt when I go out and go to school, and a long shorts and a big t-shirt when I’m home. But fashion isn’t just about our clothes. It also includes everything on our body. And in my case, people now really see me as a rocker lesbo. I have black ballers on my wrist and I don’t remove them. I have four on my right and four on my left and they are all black and one grey. That’s my style what can I do?
Going back to my question to myself why don’t I wear what others wear? In my own point of view, I wear long shorts and a big t-shirt because I want to be presentable to the Lord. If I want to be presentable for Him then I should have just worn long dresses, but dresses aren’t my type of clothes. Those clothes are two girly for me. I don’t want to look like a super girly girl or anything that will make me look like a girl. This isn’t because im a lesbo but because I wanted to be unique in my own way. Since I’m in my college, it no longer hurts when people say I dress differently, I’m a lesbo, as long as I am comfortable and as long as what I think is right I will never change the way I dress no matter what they think of me. It is fine for me to see girls with shorts short and sleeveless upper clothes, it is their style I don’t care.
In my own opinion, girls nowadays wear clothes that they think is just right for them to wear or they think can make them look like a decent-in their own point of view-sexy, beautiful, presentable teenager . My aunt once said that girls wear what they think for them is right to wear. They wear short shorts or anything that shows their body part because they want people to notice them and accept them. I kind of not agree and kind of agree on what she said. Yes girls do wear anything they think is right in their own view but the reason behind those clothes is in their own.
Fashion represents what we are outside. I always say clothes are just covers. They really aren’t the real us, what’s important the most is what’s inside of us, like what everyone else says. Clothes cover the real us they are just presentations. There is a reason why people wear the clothes they have and the true reason of their own style is always behind those apparels.