more real
in a few hours i will find myself in a crowded and noisy van, driving up north to a campground near the mogollon rim. pitching tents, cooking our own food, and unplugged worship times are a far cry from the extravagant experience of point loma summer camps with east valley bible church, but i for one am looking forward to it. i’ve increasingly become a fan of the outdoors, and i really don’t mind giving up a few luxuries such as daily showers and electrical appliances for a few days.
i’m praying that this will be a time where i can really bond with the freshman girls i’ll be discipling this upcoming school year. i know that they like me and feel comfortable around me, but i want to push beyond that into something deeper. this week is about being set apart, and i want the notion of that to become more real to them.
additionally, we are holding a makeshift talent show. marcus, alex, and i choreographed a dance to about two and a half minutes of the cha cha slide, which i laugh just thinking about. you know you have something unique when you end up describing things as “’dazzle’ fingers,” “rapid ninja jabs,” and the “oompa loompa thing.”
i want God to show me something this week, but the selfish, fleshly part of me hesitates a little. there’s always the possibility that He will reveal to me something that i don’t want to see, ask me to do something that i don’t want to do. i hope that i won’t be hindered from hearing what He really wants to tell me this week, but what is boils down to is a willingness on my part to let go of the things i hold onto far too tightly.