Boys are fags... grrrrr
John is a very confusing boy, lol. But that's ok. 'Cause he's hott. According to him I might see him tomorrow. I kinda want to, but kinda not. Of course, I want to b/c he's f-ing GORGEOUS! lol.... but it's a baad time for me.... if you know what I mean... girls.... lol. Chrissy was like "You always go for guys after Justine had 'em" lol. What can I say? She picks the hotties! But anyway...
I don't know why, but sometimes when I scroll down to old posts there are comments that I never got to see that are screened. Today I seen one from awhile back that was from Kiel. So I dunno how often Kiel comes in here or w/e... but just incase he does come in here again, I just wanna say.
Kiel-- If you don't call Jeff fat, then I apologize for saying that you do, but, whenever Jeff would complain about being made fun of, he always said that it was you, Rick, Steve, Bease, Tom, Gabe and sometimes Shandy and other people that I don't know. All he would tell me was that he got called fat, you guys hit him, blah blah blah. So I just took it as all of you doing those kinda things to him. And if you didn't do it, then I really am sorry for saying that about you. I was wrong. I do agree w/ you about Jeff though. Jeff is a good person. Only recently did me and Jeff really start having problems because of something that he said to me. I too think that Jeff would be a hell of a lot better off if he wasn't so hung up on me, and if he would just move on and try to get me off his mind. I couldn't agree more with you about that. So now, you, I and many others have said that to him, so hopefully he'll get it and maybe start to do it. I'm happy that you understand that I'm not a total bitch, me and Jeff did sometimes have good times together, but for some reason he does only write about the bad times. I guess to get it off his chest. What you don't see though, is when me and Jeff do have problems, I try to work it out w/ him, but I don't have good patience, and I should work on that.
And Jeff-- I'm not saying any of this to bad mouth you so don't get the wrong idea. But you have that one girl that you dated or are dating, I'm not really sure about your guys' status, I forgot her name, sorry. So be w/ her, or be single, w/e makes you happy. But right now, I'm trying to move on from you. And yea, I wanted our break up, I caused it, and it's my fault, but that doesn't mean that it's what makes me happy. I don't wake up in the morning and go "I'm not dating Jeff anymore" and thats what makes me have a good day. I still think about you, I care about you, I worry about you. I don't want anything bad to EVER happen to you, but I just need some time away from you. Jeff, for the last year- a little more- I have talked to you in someway at least once a day. And it's summer now, and I'm 16, and I just want to have a good time. So if I go out, and I tell you that I'm going out, just leave me alone. Yes, John was a little bit out there that night, and his gun shouldn't of been brought up, but you provoked him. And there was nothing I could do about it. It's not like I could leave, or even say anything about it, b/c I was in his house. I don't know who started it between you and John, I went to the bathroom and when I came out, John was talking about a gun, thats all I know about it. So you're guys' beef is between the 2 of you. Me and you, never ever have to talk about John or what happened again. But it's not my fault, so don't put the blame on me. Again, just leave me alone for awhile, I will let you know when we can talk again. And let me just say this, I'm really sorry that my mom called you today. I swear to God on my life-- you know I don't say that unless I mean it-- I swear I didn't tell her to. I asked her to call and find out about the text messages, b/c I didn't know if I got charged for anything that was sent to my phone, or if it was only the ones that I read and that I send. Apparently, as long as they're sent to my phone then it costs me money. So my mom asked what you do if there is someone trying to run up the phone bill and thats when she learned about getting my phone line put on watch or w/e it's called. So I'm sorry that it came down to this. I had nothing to do w/ that decision, I swear. But right now I think it's for the best, b/c I get 200 a month, and mine for this month is already gone. So anything I write or read from now until the 8th I have to pay for. So just give me a break, and we'll be fine.
Anyway, we keep losing our power and it's pissing me off. I was sitting here talking to Tim about John. And Tim being his brutally honest self was about to say something to me, and my comp. just shut off. I was pissed.
Anyway.......... I don't have anything else to say, and I think this update is long enough, lol. So I am here by finished!
-sammie-
I don't know why, but sometimes when I scroll down to old posts there are comments that I never got to see that are screened. Today I seen one from awhile back that was from Kiel. So I dunno how often Kiel comes in here or w/e... but just incase he does come in here again, I just wanna say.
Kiel-- If you don't call Jeff fat, then I apologize for saying that you do, but, whenever Jeff would complain about being made fun of, he always said that it was you, Rick, Steve, Bease, Tom, Gabe and sometimes Shandy and other people that I don't know. All he would tell me was that he got called fat, you guys hit him, blah blah blah. So I just took it as all of you doing those kinda things to him. And if you didn't do it, then I really am sorry for saying that about you. I was wrong. I do agree w/ you about Jeff though. Jeff is a good person. Only recently did me and Jeff really start having problems because of something that he said to me. I too think that Jeff would be a hell of a lot better off if he wasn't so hung up on me, and if he would just move on and try to get me off his mind. I couldn't agree more with you about that. So now, you, I and many others have said that to him, so hopefully he'll get it and maybe start to do it. I'm happy that you understand that I'm not a total bitch, me and Jeff did sometimes have good times together, but for some reason he does only write about the bad times. I guess to get it off his chest. What you don't see though, is when me and Jeff do have problems, I try to work it out w/ him, but I don't have good patience, and I should work on that.
And Jeff-- I'm not saying any of this to bad mouth you so don't get the wrong idea. But you have that one girl that you dated or are dating, I'm not really sure about your guys' status, I forgot her name, sorry. So be w/ her, or be single, w/e makes you happy. But right now, I'm trying to move on from you. And yea, I wanted our break up, I caused it, and it's my fault, but that doesn't mean that it's what makes me happy. I don't wake up in the morning and go "I'm not dating Jeff anymore" and thats what makes me have a good day. I still think about you, I care about you, I worry about you. I don't want anything bad to EVER happen to you, but I just need some time away from you. Jeff, for the last year- a little more- I have talked to you in someway at least once a day. And it's summer now, and I'm 16, and I just want to have a good time. So if I go out, and I tell you that I'm going out, just leave me alone. Yes, John was a little bit out there that night, and his gun shouldn't of been brought up, but you provoked him. And there was nothing I could do about it. It's not like I could leave, or even say anything about it, b/c I was in his house. I don't know who started it between you and John, I went to the bathroom and when I came out, John was talking about a gun, thats all I know about it. So you're guys' beef is between the 2 of you. Me and you, never ever have to talk about John or what happened again. But it's not my fault, so don't put the blame on me. Again, just leave me alone for awhile, I will let you know when we can talk again. And let me just say this, I'm really sorry that my mom called you today. I swear to God on my life-- you know I don't say that unless I mean it-- I swear I didn't tell her to. I asked her to call and find out about the text messages, b/c I didn't know if I got charged for anything that was sent to my phone, or if it was only the ones that I read and that I send. Apparently, as long as they're sent to my phone then it costs me money. So my mom asked what you do if there is someone trying to run up the phone bill and thats when she learned about getting my phone line put on watch or w/e it's called. So I'm sorry that it came down to this. I had nothing to do w/ that decision, I swear. But right now I think it's for the best, b/c I get 200 a month, and mine for this month is already gone. So anything I write or read from now until the 8th I have to pay for. So just give me a break, and we'll be fine.
Anyway, we keep losing our power and it's pissing me off. I was sitting here talking to Tim about John. And Tim being his brutally honest self was about to say something to me, and my comp. just shut off. I was pissed.
Anyway.......... I don't have anything else to say, and I think this update is long enough, lol. So I am here by finished!
-sammie-