hey
Well........ I'm just sitting here thinking about random things.
I'm going to recap about last night
well, I was chilling with Lindsay and Brandon. And, of course, Brandon goes on about how I need a boyfriend and shit like that. And how I should go out with Aaron. Who is he to say shiit like that? Why would a guy who is going to Tennesee for college want to be dating a sophmore in highschool all the way in DE. That's retarded. But, to tell you the truth, it'd be nice. Even Lindsay was like, I'll work my magic. Why!!??!! I mean, I'm sure he already knows I like him, Brandon says it enough when we're all together, and I guess it's a good thing that someone would talk to him about it. But what would that make me look like? A retard who just can't come out and say it? A loser who doesn't have the guts to come out on her own with her feelings?
You would think people would be able to say the way they're feeling towards certain people. And I can, when it comes to some things. I can tell Lindsay when she's getting annoying, and Brent when he's pissing me off about the whole hanging out thing, and blah blah blah. But when it comes to things that deal with your heart, you just loose your breath that you need so badly just to speak those simple words. That breath, you know that it's so freaking important, and I guess when you do have it, nothing matters. But when you don't, everything is wrong. Everything.... and that makes me so aggrivated.