I hate being sick
I think for some reason I have entered a bout of depression. For some reason, lately, anything and everything makes me sad. I think maybe god is mad me. I used to be a person full of faith and spirit, but after certain things happend, I kind of lost my faith, not in God, but in the church and I came to realize that I really don't care too much for the Catholic religion, its full of hypocrisy and bs ( not to offend anyone who is a faithfull catholic, this is just my opinion). But I know that something in my life is missing, I am not too sure what it is, or even if its one specific thing. Maybe its several things combined. I just feel kind of strange in my own skin, and that has never happened to me before. I have never been one to regret things, but someitmes I cant help but think about all the what-ifs, and I know that is no way to live life. All I know is that I need to snap out of it. Hopefully soon things will go back to normal. Maybe what I need is to go back to Sylvia. I thought that I could do this alone with out her, but I am starting to think that I cant. I didn't want to become dependent on soemone else, but she always knows what to say, she doesn't judge me and is always truthful with me, and I always appreciated that from her. I am hoping that all this gets resolved soon and that my life goes back to normal, whatever the fuck normal is.