Lonely
So, I'm sitting at home doing absolutely nothing even though I was supposed to go out with Vrod and Katrina. See they decided that they wanted to go to Cafe Iguana's in Pembroke Pines and that is so far especially when I'm not really in the mood. It would have been pointless for me to go. I think vrod got mad b/c she tried to find a way for me to go but by that time I had already hit my depressed state and really didn't want to do anything.
Depressed? you ask... well yes, you see I'm always acting like I don't need a guy and Vrod and Katrina were both going with guys and Katrina wanted me to go with her brother, which isn't a problem I love Jason, he's great! but, I kind of felt sad when I realized that I didn't really have a date for the night. I mean I have a guy friend that I've been spending time with lately but I guess that's what added to the hurt that was already there... I called him and he didn't answer and he has yet to call me. I told vrod that I was sad but that it wasn't b/c of him and although it wasn't b/c of him, he did add to it. There are times that I feel like I'm never going to find the guy that I want. I'm way too picky. I kind of feel like just saying Fudge it and get with the next guy that comes my way. But I'm not going to do that b/c as many sad days as I may have, one day I will find the guy for me. I just hope it's sooner rather than later I'm starting to hate the sad days. It's been a while since I have an actual boyfriend and I'm starting to get lonely. I can't wait to find my "Mr. Right" so that I don't have any more lonely days. EVER!!! I wish I had a guy to call and have him pick my up so that I didn't have to stay home today but I'm definately not okay to drive today.
Depressed? you ask... well yes, you see I'm always acting like I don't need a guy and Vrod and Katrina were both going with guys and Katrina wanted me to go with her brother, which isn't a problem I love Jason, he's great! but, I kind of felt sad when I realized that I didn't really have a date for the night. I mean I have a guy friend that I've been spending time with lately but I guess that's what added to the hurt that was already there... I called him and he didn't answer and he has yet to call me. I told vrod that I was sad but that it wasn't b/c of him and although it wasn't b/c of him, he did add to it. There are times that I feel like I'm never going to find the guy that I want. I'm way too picky. I kind of feel like just saying Fudge it and get with the next guy that comes my way. But I'm not going to do that b/c as many sad days as I may have, one day I will find the guy for me. I just hope it's sooner rather than later I'm starting to hate the sad days. It's been a while since I have an actual boyfriend and I'm starting to get lonely. I can't wait to find my "Mr. Right" so that I don't have any more lonely days. EVER!!! I wish I had a guy to call and have him pick my up so that I didn't have to stay home today but I'm definately not okay to drive today.