::cries hysterically::
People ask me, "why must you go so fast on the road?"
"Well...why not? There's nothing better to do."
"But you could endanger your life," they'll say.
"Who cares...I dont tend to value it, so why be cautious?"
They get worried or at least look it. "What? What would make you say such a thing?!"
"Life sucks for me."
"But you are always so happy Jess, what are you talking about?" they say to me.
And I finally reply with tears swelled in my throat,
"The day that i'm truly loved is the day i will be truly happy"
....just once i want to be truly loved...to actually be told "I LOVE YOU JESS. YOU MEAN THE WHOLE WORLD TO ME. YOU ARE MY EVERYTHING AND I LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING." ....to be told that would make me feel so happy...
i want to be loved...i just want to be loved for once by the one that i love more than anything in the world. he may say he's sorry because he's trying no to hurt me, and it happens anyway. he may say he's sorry because he knows i deserve so much more and knows it......but I LOVE HIM MORE THAN LIFE ITSELF....MORE THAN LIFE ITSELF DAMMIT!!! DOES THAT NOT SAY ANYTHING.........?!
((breaks down to cry)) ....just once....just once. i want to know that i'm loved and it's actually MEANT...not a show. never a show. i'd rather put a bullet through my head than know that everything is a lie....
..i dont know what i'm saying....i just want to be held and told that everythings okay and that i am loved.....
::cries::
"Well...why not? There's nothing better to do."
"But you could endanger your life," they'll say.
"Who cares...I dont tend to value it, so why be cautious?"
They get worried or at least look it. "What? What would make you say such a thing?!"
"Life sucks for me."
"But you are always so happy Jess, what are you talking about?" they say to me.
And I finally reply with tears swelled in my throat,
"The day that i'm truly loved is the day i will be truly happy"
....just once i want to be truly loved...to actually be told "I LOVE YOU JESS. YOU MEAN THE WHOLE WORLD TO ME. YOU ARE MY EVERYTHING AND I LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING." ....to be told that would make me feel so happy...
i want to be loved...i just want to be loved for once by the one that i love more than anything in the world. he may say he's sorry because he's trying no to hurt me, and it happens anyway. he may say he's sorry because he knows i deserve so much more and knows it......but I LOVE HIM MORE THAN LIFE ITSELF....MORE THAN LIFE ITSELF DAMMIT!!! DOES THAT NOT SAY ANYTHING.........?!
((breaks down to cry)) ....just once....just once. i want to know that i'm loved and it's actually MEANT...not a show. never a show. i'd rather put a bullet through my head than know that everything is a lie....
..i dont know what i'm saying....i just want to be held and told that everythings okay and that i am loved.....
::cries::