Time
It’s been 14 years since I’ve made an entry here. Sorry for taking up space without making anything new. All these years and what do I have to show for it? Well, I have cats, a wife, grandkids, a mortgage, more bills than I care to mention, doctor appointments I can’t afford, and a profound sense of sorrow for days gone by. Not that I’m unhappy with my life now, but I feel like maybe I didn’t appreciate things when they were “easier” as much as I should have. Nostalgia has a way of making me feel like when I was younger, I didn’t realize how much freedom and joy I truly had in my life. Again, not that I’m without joy now, it’s just different and there’s so much else included now, that it’s hard to enjoy the good times as much as I’d like. I suppose everyone goes through this at some point in time but when you’re alone in your thoughts, it can really hit hard sometimes.
Still, there is very little I would change were I given the opportunity. Two specific events in my life qualify as what I would call a true ”regret”. Everything else negative is more along the lines of, “maybe I should have done that differently”. Life has a plan, I’m sure. We’ll see what happens. For now, I hope that it includes more involvement in things that I can enjoy and appreciate in the present, so that when I’m even older and look back, I can say that I gave those moments the appropriate amount of enjoyment. And maybe it won’t be another 14 years before I write again.