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Quick update to my life:
I'm done with mono, back at school and back at work. However, all i feel like is i'm going through the motions just to complete the semester. I can't take being there anymore. Honestly, i am terrified of going to next semester b/c I don't think i can put my whole heart into it and therefore not do well and just screw myself some more...why do I gotta fail at so much in my life?
I have found someone who I think would be great to get to know better than I have...however he goes to school far away. DAMNIT! Such a sweet guy, and I love talking to him. Oye..
Weird sidenote, been getting more texts than I ever expected from my ex....wtf?
Still waiting...hmmm maybe that song will work....all I want for Christmas is you...except instead of you say all I want for Christmas is officialness. New Year's resolution number one, forget about him if it doesn't happen by then. Shouldn't have gone this long..too hard to let go.
Working on getting another job and trying different things out...we'll see where that goes.
Emotion of the past few months: Anger. Pure anger and frustration. no matter what happens, I get mad about it. I don't like it....but thats whats happening to me. I've become an angry and annoyed person. I think part of the reason was because when I didn't have work I didn't have anything to do....and it felt like there wasn't anyone who wanted to do anything. But alas, i'm back at work and well...in a weird way I'm happy bout it b/c it gives me something to do. New Year's resolution number two: stop being so damn angry.
Hmm, gotta do some apologizing. But I dont really want to. I don't think I should apologize, just want things to go back to normal. However, while she is still another big part of her life, I don't know if I can be around as much. I don't want to make her choose, so I'll do it for her. She'll be a better person anyways...I'm a screw up soooo lets leave it at that. I think if it were anyone else, I'd be ok, its just this girl is annoying as all fuck and a big ass drama queen, probably worse than that....i don't think she realizes how many people DON'T like her pompous ass. Oye, sorry, had to let it out. OOOOOOOOOK
Guess that is all for the moment. Just wanted to write something after getting home so late instead of going to bed...although bed is nice...hmmm sleep...goodnight
I'm done with mono, back at school and back at work. However, all i feel like is i'm going through the motions just to complete the semester. I can't take being there anymore. Honestly, i am terrified of going to next semester b/c I don't think i can put my whole heart into it and therefore not do well and just screw myself some more...why do I gotta fail at so much in my life?
I have found someone who I think would be great to get to know better than I have...however he goes to school far away. DAMNIT! Such a sweet guy, and I love talking to him. Oye..
Weird sidenote, been getting more texts than I ever expected from my ex....wtf?
Still waiting...hmmm maybe that song will work....all I want for Christmas is you...except instead of you say all I want for Christmas is officialness. New Year's resolution number one, forget about him if it doesn't happen by then. Shouldn't have gone this long..too hard to let go.
Working on getting another job and trying different things out...we'll see where that goes.
Emotion of the past few months: Anger. Pure anger and frustration. no matter what happens, I get mad about it. I don't like it....but thats whats happening to me. I've become an angry and annoyed person. I think part of the reason was because when I didn't have work I didn't have anything to do....and it felt like there wasn't anyone who wanted to do anything. But alas, i'm back at work and well...in a weird way I'm happy bout it b/c it gives me something to do. New Year's resolution number two: stop being so damn angry.
Hmm, gotta do some apologizing. But I dont really want to. I don't think I should apologize, just want things to go back to normal. However, while she is still another big part of her life, I don't know if I can be around as much. I don't want to make her choose, so I'll do it for her. She'll be a better person anyways...I'm a screw up soooo lets leave it at that. I think if it were anyone else, I'd be ok, its just this girl is annoying as all fuck and a big ass drama queen, probably worse than that....i don't think she realizes how many people DON'T like her pompous ass. Oye, sorry, had to let it out. OOOOOOOOOK
Guess that is all for the moment. Just wanted to write something after getting home so late instead of going to bed...although bed is nice...hmmm sleep...goodnight