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[dozababy04]

so i wrote an entry on xanga a couple hours ago, and it seemed for the most part to at least be content, if not happy. but the more i roll the words over again in my head, the more i realize what a lie it was

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[saturndescends]

man, you dont even KNOW how many shitty relationships and issues i went through before i found the right one. i still question it though because that became my nature before. i dont really think its possible to meet the PERFECT guy and have the PERFECT relationship. everyone has flaws and every relationship is a compromise... its work. it doesnt just happen. if you have some things you need to ask alan, do it. you should be able to be completely honest with the person you are with. i know its uncomfortable sometimes but it will make you feel better in the long run... and you never know. he might feel the same way you do. :)

also, dont worry too much about your life. you are doing more than a lot of people and personally, i think your life is fine. you have friends and family that love you and you are a productive member of society. what more do you need out of life? you should try being content with what you have and how you are now and see how it makes you feel. dont judge your life on soneone elses... thats theirs, this is yours. make the best of it.