[locked to Iris]

[doyoulikecake]

[OOC: After numerous journal entries locked to her that received no reply (which I am sure y'all do not want to see spammed out on your flists :P) and unanswered phone calls/texts]

Iris:

If you don't respond to this, I'm cutting off our bond in the assumption you no longer have any investment in our friendship. Please at least talk to me? :(

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[and then the floodgates are opened, and she's pouring out stuff]

[sophicsulphur]

I'm worthless

--a guardian, everything

Can't save you or even myself or be an angel or anything

I should just die

[doyoulikecake]

Hey now, don't be so harsh on yourself. You've been through a lot of shit, & I don't know the whole of it but I think I have an idea. But that doesn't mean you're worthless. You're just inexperienced & naive, like any teenager. & while a big part of me kind of wants to say 'I told you so', that's not going to help anything right now.

You should come home, kiddo. We're worried about you.

[sophicsulphur]

sorry-- too much-- I can't

Can't be home for a while

Sorry--

[doyoulikecake]

Are you at least somewhere safe?

[sophicsulphur]

Nowhere is safe.

I'm not in torture though any more in a place I can breathe some think it shall should be okay--

[doyoulikecake]

There are always safe places. A friend's house, maybe. If you can't come home, I mean. :(

What do you mean, not in torture anymore? If you can't say, that's ok. Like I said, we're just really worried. Considered going to the police & reporting you as missing if we couldn't get ahold of you for much longer, particularly since the journal network doesn't seem incredibly safe for public 'have you seen?' notices. :/

(Molly hasn't tried to contact you, has she? She didn't do anything to you, did she?)

[sophicsulphur]

Even friends-- not sure Will find a place though someone maybe
--I'm sorry :(

[She does have faith in a very small subset of her friends, but like hell she's letting on which ones.]

Molly did you did everyone did :( Too much anymore.
So sorry. Even me I can't trust. Even everything lost everything

[doyoulikecake]

Let me know if you do? You don't have to tell me where, just let me know you're safe. The phone will be on through the end of the month, still; I hope we can work something out before then, that you feel safe enough to come home.

Well, I'm glad she hasn't tried to contact you, if I'm parsing your omission right. So many people think she's harmless because of how she presents herself, and I'm sorry you were hurt by it. (And if you don't mind my asking, what did I do?)

It's okay, kiddo. It'll be okay.

[sophicsulphur]

I love her-- I love both of you-- tell her I love her if you can become
--what is wrong?? Why would you glad she hasn't tried to?

talk about it
--hard, ask me other time I'm sorry I want to tell you :(

what date is it today?

I love you
I'm sorry :(

[doyoulikecake]

I will, kid. & I'm just worried because she's not very stable (I know you know about her drug problem at the very least) & it doesn't seem like you are either. & I'd like to see you stable again without any complications.

We can talk about it later, when you feel better.

It's the 12th -- just turned, in fact.

I know, kiddo. It's okay. We'll work something out, ok?

[sophicsulphur]

:( Didn't seem it, I'm not-- I'm sorry &so sorry I wish I could but I'm worried to help her I'll collapse--
I want be there but I'm am paper thin transparent (sorry you have to be the only one taking care)

It would be me but I'm worthless at this :(

will talk & thanks
why are we all the ones dying

--I just wanted to live-- with my family-- we would have made it

We will work something out---