*i've looked around enough to know*

[doyouevennotice]

I don't know how to make this work. We talked for hours last night and still, i feel like we're so far away from what we should be. There is no doubt in m mind that you may just be the perfect person for me. There never has been any doubting that, the way I feel about you. I feel like you can pull me through anything. Anything that goes wrong, I know that I'll bve alrite as long as you're there. But latel, I've felt like maybe you haven't been there completely. Maybe your mind has been elsewhere and that's okay because mine has been too. With everything going on with me and my life and my family and my friends and work, god it's hard to breathe sometimes. The truth is, with all of that going on and all that you and I have been through, my heart and mind still agree. They are both in the same place. Although I have lived without you for a month or two, they were some of the hardest times I've ever had because it felt like part of me was gone too. And I think that maybe I haven't yet gotten that part of me back. I know the other night I said that I feel like I'm not enough for you. And honestly, I do feel that way sometimes. But it's most likely because I'm not exactly good enough for myself lately. I really feel alone, and until I feel good enough for myself, I'm not going to feel good enough for you or anyone for that matter. I miss you. I miss the way things were and the times when I was so head over heals for you that I didn't know what to do with myself. But just because we're going through some rocky times now, keep in mind that I'm still holding out for you...

'until I can learn to look at myself without judgment or condemnation, then you're right: I'm not ready for you. Or for anybody.'