*...i need you...*
so yeah, i guess it's been some time. there's been so much to write about up until now but i guess there just hasn't been time. i dunno. i don't know much of anything anymore. things have gone so crazy lately. i've lost the love of my life and the best friend i have ever had...that was just bound to happen i suppose. my whole world fell apart with that and just when i think i'm picking up the pieces, something else bad happens. i don't even know how to explain it all i know is that i need help. why is it that every time i meet someone who seems to be perfect for me all the odds are against me? this time it's not even a problem with me and him it's his brother's girlfriend and i guess the rest of his friends...is that fair? and because everyone seems to be against me right now do i just let go? do i give up on something that has been so right for months? is it possible to just turn your feelings off like that? i haven't felt so sure about someone in a really long time and yet i feel like i'm being pulled away from him from all directions. and i'm scared. i don't know how hard i could fight. any input? i feel so powerless right now. it's a shitty way to feel. like i actually feel heartbroken, empty even. if i made a mistake then i'm sorry. but i don't think that i did. and i don't understand how people who seemed to be my friends have completely turned on me and now seem to pretty much hate me. i dunno i'm gonna go call someone though. if you got help give it.
<3 Kaleina
<3 Kaleina