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what is the matter with me? i've been sad lately and i know it's only cause i'm feeling sorry for myself. i try to trigger all the positive energy in, the negative energy out. it's hard though. i don't know why, but it's hard. i need to meditate. i need some alone time so i can think about all the good. i don't know why i'm always bitching about something. i do i do. i do have a good life, a happy one. but for some reason i'm always bitching about something. maybe cause i have all this time to think. maybe it's cause i'm in a relationship i know i shouldn't be in. maybe it's just cause i'm a mopper. whatever the reason i'm tired of it. i'm tired of my bitching. i want to crawl out of my skin and become someone new. one day.