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I wassn't looking for a boyfriend until this wone popped into my lap. It's still so early considering me and Justin haven't even cut off all contact. But I feel so happy. My heart tells me to do one thing, but my brain tell me another...which one shall I pick. We have already establihed our relationship....maybe it was to soon, maybe it wasn't. Maybe I'll crash and burn, but that is a risk I'm willing to take. I have no idea about this one. Was it to early. Who knows. Does he like where we are? Maybe he doesn't even see us as a title, and I'm just freaking out because I care about what he thinks alot. Hmmmmm where will this go, what will I feel, will it be sad, happy, heartbreaking? I don't know...and even though I don't know...oh how I cae so much. ERRRRRR!!! why!!! why am i such a pansy little girl. uh so how about I am going to be nineteen in shy five days. I'm excited. First big big big party I am able to have for my birthday. Oh how it will be the shit.