for a time I thought
I am over my ex now. And I don't even hate him anymore. My friends were asking me if I still liked him today in math class, and when I said "no" I realized that I wasn't lying. It was true. I don't like him like that anymore.
And then today he said that my artwork looked amazing, and the first thought that came to my mind was, "Oh, that's really nice of him to say." Not, "WHY THE HELL ARE YOU TALKING TO ME?" Nope.
I'm over him. And I like it. I mean, he's a cool guy. He just didn't know how to end the relationship without hurting me, which only made it hurt me more. So... I forgive him. I don't hate him. I hope he gets girls and I hope he doesn't regret breaking up with me because I know that feeling and it is a terrible feeling to have. That whole, "What if...?" thought process. It kills me sometimes.
I want to go to a party this year. Or numerous ones. I just want to get out and try something new. I'm a little bit tired of sitting at home on Friday nights alone. I know, eventually there will be football games and I'll go to those. But I really want to go to a party and just see what it's like. I bet they're overrated, but how will I know unless I actually go to one? I just better not get shitfaced. That's my only request of myself. Do not get super drunk and do stupid things.
Sooo. Short entry, I know. But it's to the point. I'm happy with where I am, but I want to branch out. I want to experiment and see what happens.
And then today he said that my artwork looked amazing, and the first thought that came to my mind was, "Oh, that's really nice of him to say." Not, "WHY THE HELL ARE YOU TALKING TO ME?" Nope.
I'm over him. And I like it. I mean, he's a cool guy. He just didn't know how to end the relationship without hurting me, which only made it hurt me more. So... I forgive him. I don't hate him. I hope he gets girls and I hope he doesn't regret breaking up with me because I know that feeling and it is a terrible feeling to have. That whole, "What if...?" thought process. It kills me sometimes.
I want to go to a party this year. Or numerous ones. I just want to get out and try something new. I'm a little bit tired of sitting at home on Friday nights alone. I know, eventually there will be football games and I'll go to those. But I really want to go to a party and just see what it's like. I bet they're overrated, but how will I know unless I actually go to one? I just better not get shitfaced. That's my only request of myself. Do not get super drunk and do stupid things.
Sooo. Short entry, I know. But it's to the point. I'm happy with where I am, but I want to branch out. I want to experiment and see what happens.