nolovember
it was victoria's birthday weekend, it was good. i can't believe she's 7. andrew's birthday is next and he's going to be 2, it just seems so impossible.
things in my life...have changed...but not gotten better.
i'm still lonely in a way i can't even put into words. i'm still...lost without love. i had so many things i loved about my life, so many people i loved, so many comfortable things in my life and they're all gone.
people still don't know how to talk to me, or they just don't call at all.
worst almost 8 weeks of my life...i can't believe it's been so long, it feels like forever sometimes...other times it feels like that last kiss was yesterday.
i'm so sick of crying, and feeling worthless. i'm sick of living in a house where i'm not only unwanted, i hate being here. i hate that people can't stand the smell of smoke that's constantly shrouding me. it's horrible and it's embarrassing.
you'd think a good rant and a good cry would help me feel better...but that's not the case.
things in my life...have changed...but not gotten better.
i'm still lonely in a way i can't even put into words. i'm still...lost without love. i had so many things i loved about my life, so many people i loved, so many comfortable things in my life and they're all gone.
people still don't know how to talk to me, or they just don't call at all.
worst almost 8 weeks of my life...i can't believe it's been so long, it feels like forever sometimes...other times it feels like that last kiss was yesterday.
i'm so sick of crying, and feeling worthless. i'm sick of living in a house where i'm not only unwanted, i hate being here. i hate that people can't stand the smell of smoke that's constantly shrouding me. it's horrible and it's embarrassing.
you'd think a good rant and a good cry would help me feel better...but that's not the case.