Sep 13, 2007 11:06
i have seriously got to do something with my life. i woke up at 9, forced myself to sleep or at least lay there for another 2 hours because i have no motivation to do otherwise. i've still got cleaning to do, which went unappreciated yesterday so why be in a rush to complete those chores? i've got to sit down and start documenting the way i feel in the course of a day, because i think i need to change my anxiety medicine.
i also need to get exactly how i've been feeeeeeling out of me or i'm going to be the one to end this whole thing. i am worn out. and i'm starting to feel like there's no point in working so hard.
i can honestly say it's worse to second guess every happy second than it is to just be upset.