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So... What's up in the vast land of Natalie? Not a hell of a lot. I've spent all of yesterday and today, oh and the day before that, locked away in my room. I guess I got an anti-social thing going. But it's not like I'm being punished or anything. I'm choosing to do this. And it's been ok. Well, up untill recently, I've been thinking about life outside of my box and I realized that I'm really regretting not going to school on Friday, therefore making me unable to go out, therefore missing a fun Friday night with friends, therefore making me depressed, and therefore making me stay in my room all alone. Eh, scratch the all alone shit. That's way too emo. But yeah, I've been basically passing up my life so I can stay in bed and watch tv. I guess that's not the best thing for me. But now that I see what I did to myself, I feel worse and less like going out. And I've been eating way too much too. Ever since the doctor told my mom to keep an eye on my weight I've been feeding myself 24/7 so that they won't have to worry about anorexia and all that shit. But now I feel absolutely disgusting because of it. I feel like I'm gonna throw up or something. Eh..... I don't know what to do with myself. I'm just a failure at life I guess. Well, I guess maybe I should rant about something. I choose my parents. Not just them, but how fucking stupid it is for them to ban me from seeing rated R movies. Yeah, what the fuck?? Someone please tell me what is so fucking bad about fucking R movies? Nothing. And it's not like just because they don't let me rent them at Blockbuster I'm not going to see them. And besides, I'm fucking sixteen! What is there in a fucking R movie that I don't know about or experienced first-hand? Nothing. Oh no, they said the F word, I think my heart is failing. Oh my god! Blood! Eek! I feel faint... Dear lord, they shot somebody! I'm going to throw up. Aye los dios! They're having sex!! I'm going to die! Yeah... cuz I'm so fucking pure and virgin... I don't know what drugs are. And you know me, I've never even TOUCHED a guy before. It's all fucking bullshit. Go eat shit and die you fucking Nazis. Fucking cheese pussies. Fucking psychos. Have fun in your dream land where everyone does what they're told and everyone is so pure and clean that you need to wear sunglasses to even look at them. WhatFUCKINGever!