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I'm listening to Vornagar. Whoa crazy huh? Cuz you're like, "Dude what the fuck is Vornagar?" It's a band. Apperantly, some guy came up to Gina and gave her the demo cd of his band. So she let me borrow it. I like it, but the vocals aren't loud enough so that doesn't make it sound as good as it should. Yeah... I think that when I get my band all together and we write songs that we'd sound like this. Well.... hopefully.... Still need to get everything together with that. And write songs too. Oh I tried to write today in Study Hall, but I'm just horrible at it. Everything I write sounds really lame. I don't know what to do. I mean... I could write all angry and shit I guess, but... I'm not angry at anyone. Like, right now all I have is love in my heart! I'm so loving right now! Yeah... I'm just in a good mood like that. I don't know what to right about! I can't right about happy things and love and all that shit, that would make a horrible metal band! I can't scream about how beautiful everyone is and how nice it is to be alive! No! I can't do that! So then I think maybe I should write crazy lyrics like SOAD style. But when I try, I look at what I write and say "God what a load of shit! I suck at this! People will laugh and point and stare if this is a song!" So fuck that..... What the fuck do I write about? I can't write about my life hardships... Cuz I don't have any. I suppose my last options is to do lots of drugs and then write. And when I wake up the next day, go read what I've written. That could work... But I don't know. I suppose lyrics don't matter all that much If I'm gonna be screaming them anyway, people won't really understand it. Maybe I should try to write music, but god I suck at that too!! I've written a couple things, not full songs or anything, but they're really pathetic. And I wouldn't know how to put things that I've written on piano into bass, drums and guitar. Well, I guess I could write some stuff for keyboard, since we've decided to have keyboard in our band too. I wonder who will be the lucky bitch to do that! It's like the easiest thing ever too. I'd totally do it, but there's no way in hell that I'm gonna be in the background. Oh hell no! I'm the leader! I run this band! Without me they're only little girls who don't do homework! Haha.... This is funny. Because we still haven't actually STARTED the band. We just talk about it profusely and wait for Gina's brother to move out so she can get drums and learn how to play them. Wow, she's probably gonna be a really sucky drummer. But that's ok, we're in this together bitch! Well enough of this band talk. Ummm let's see. Oooh yesterday I had a math test, (Eep!!) but I think I got them all right, cuz I checked my answers and everything. I hope I did at least. Man oh man. I really need to get my act together with school and all. If I want to have a life this summer that is. Oooookkaaayyy... Damn this ADD!! I can't fucking do this damn work! Too.... Manyy.... Numbers.... Letters..... Oh what's on TV??? Frrraaaahhhh!!! Meow! Oh boy... Yes this is fun. Yesterday was fun. I had a Rockstar and I was fucking bouncing off the walls! Caffeine is so much fun! I put it right next to ephedrine, but that shit's better. Mmmm yes it is.... It makes you oh so happy too!! I'm happy though. I don't know why. I should be sad because I lost my fabulous painting yesterday. Oh what a sad tale! I feel a tear watering up in my eye as we speak... NOT!!! Hahaha.... Ok yeah. I don't know what else to say. Bye!!!