Fighting a losing war
New toy to my family of hello kitty and eeyores // Cute little monkey zodiac from River Angbao, may the year be good to all the old, big, young and little fellow monkeys // Bite-sized updates from instagram cause i've been too busy studying
Back from marketing paper and finally had some good sleep. Taking a break from these shitload of insane studying all these days. All these late nights are taking a toll on my complexion, my pimples are so bad i think i'm close to being disfigured. Had to step into watsons to purchase facial form and pimple cream in hope to save my face. So yes, sucks knowing that this is only the beginning of all these late night studying and is probably going to get worse for the next few months till 20th May.
Speaking of which, everybody has started making plans, especially traveling plans after exams. Nothing on my plate, #foreveralone. So damn sick and tired of people making promises they can't deliver. Well, and i'm always the only idiot getting all hyped up with high hopes just to get it crash at the end of the day. Stupid or naive? Judge for yourself.
I don't even know what to feel about lies and excuses anymore. I ain't no fool, really. What i didn't speak up for doesn't mean that i know nothing about everything. For one, i do and i didn't want to let myself get too affected by things that probably aren't worth my attention. I really want to close an eye to everything but please, don't stretch me any further. I've an advice though - Quit lying, quit finding excuses, quit neglecting those who really care cause one day they aren't going to be there anymore and quit competing for the only competition is yourself. Oh and for once, i really believe that ignorance is truly bliss.
Of late, my world has been pitch dark. I lost all the positive vibes in myself, i lost all the trust i've in people, and i think i lost myself a little. I wear a smile, but deep down i'm not so sure if it feels the same deep down. I no longer want to see the good in people, cause all people do is to prove me wrong, again and again. I've probably done trying. Too sad, too tired, too sick to even bother anymore. I hope i feel better soon, if i don't, i wish to go in my sleep someday because i was told, the grass is greener on the other side. I'd love to see, the greener side of this field.