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One of those fears...I realized I had one while I was walking down the stairs of the music building. I had been rehersing the lines for our audits. I still don't understand how some of these things sneak up on me.
But the fear came, unnoticed. It was conscerning the friendship Caley and I have We clicked like two chickens clucking. It was almost too sudden. Ive had this before. But before I was silly enough to call her my best friend and that fell through before it even finished. So now I'm wary. Oh well, if it happens at least I won't be hurt or shocked, I'll just realize it and walk through life with a smile on my face. I overanalyze things too much.
There are swing dancing lessons tonight. I don't think I wantto go. I would hate watching everyone pair off. And it might remind me too much of back home of swing dancing with Brianna, Abbey, Aarron, Tim, Korie, Lindsey, Jessica.... sometimes I get so homesick. I don't want my experiences to be ruined. I just want to cherish them. HOld them up. Keep the moments special.
Just..........
to keep it alive.