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ok..so im starting to get really reflective about high school...shit that i do routinely is starting to get much more significant as the year goes along, and that is very strange. i never thought id ever get sappy about leaving this place..but i feel that after april is over that that will in fact, happen..and it will be pitiful. now i wish that i would not had been so obsessive about the whole college thing this year and spent more time to relax and have fun...ive had a ton of fun this year..i mean shit..but not nearly as much as i would have w/o the added stress...i guess its been programmed into me...i always make things out of my control a bigger deal then they should be...now instead of looking back on high school as a series of numbers/letters on top of a page, i have been trying to rehash and compile memories...recently i have been looking back at my journal entries from the past year and a half and i have spent wayyyyy to much time dwelling on negative/petty/stupid things..but i guess thats part of reflection...things that seem significant at the time..wisdom (well..not wisdom..but with removal of time) can make these things become petty and/or stupid i suppose...i guess i never feel the need to write about positive things bc i accept them as kickin ass and i move on...so my goals for the rest of the year are as follows...

-get thru the next 2 school days.
-have a kick ass spring break with wade/dave and the lax/baseball teams at disney
-come back...play some lacrosse...do no work
-not study for any of my ap exams..or precalc.
-senior project.
-gradiate..
-have a kick ass summer with the high school brosephs...no negative people who suck..just good friends that i can reflect upon with rainbows and unicorns then in the words of dane cook, "bid this place a fuckin-do"...but seriously..thats a lot of shit to get done w/in 35 school days...so...help a brother out.